Yasmin Ahmad is gone ): For those who don't know, she's this Malaysian director and IMHO she's really really good. She made that funeral commercial (the one with the Indian woman) too. Search Tan Hong Min In Love on YouTube that one's cute (:

Meanwhile here's another good commercial if you read the YouTube comments everyone cried watching it. I didn't though (?)

Back to math.

You know, this bio PT should be super easy for a Greenie like me because everything about climate change and environment's already ingrained in my Greenie brain.

But putting it down on Pages is a different matter altogether I guess. I could stand in front of the panel and argue to the ends of the earth but I can't make a dumb little propaganda pamphlet now how sad is that.

On the bright side, Fearful Symmetry's final performance was FUN (: But I've been missing so much school (because of my mental-physical health saga, tech rehearsal and the actual performance) poor Parisa has been keeping all my notes and worksheets and I have a LOT to catch up on. Not to mention campaigning.

But OPTIMISM is the way to go so I can do it(:

Hey(: Sorry I daoed so many people today or stared at you all but didn't respond or anything when you said hi. I was feeling pretty horrible today morning and still a bit mad a myself for getting myself into this state of mental health.

But I feel. So much better (: Yay! Sleep is awesome. So I shall sleep soon and wake up really early yay!

And you know that Doberman wasn't rabid, in fact it was sleeping and curled up in the corner but I just HAD to go to it and stick my finger in front of its nose so it bit my finger and now it's chasing me and whattaya know when it stops I'll probably do the same thing all over again.

Sorry I've been whining to everyone, life is perfectly fine and fair I guess to most extent, I am too, just not to myself. (: Ah. Well.

AHHHH LIFE IS CHASING ME LIKE A RABID DOBERMAN and I have a thermometer stuck in my mouth even though I'm not sick and I'm crossing my eyes trying to read the numbers so I just typed a post without looking at the screen.

Okay now I'm looking at the screen and I have no idea what's happening to me :O Oh yes and today I got my first major migraine hooray! It lasted approximately 9 hours too. So when Vic was telling me all her amusing RGPS stories I was clutching my forehead and laughing at the same time. Laughter kills (:

Haha shall stop feeling sorry for my little problems GET WELL SOON BEN AND RYAN! 

AHHH SHAO AND RACHEL ARE RIGHT I AM A FREAKY PERFECTIONIST! Aw man if I weren't I would've been asleep by now.
(but not all the time because i only get perfectionistic over things worth getting perfectionistic over)

Uh. No sports fest ): (LONG JUMP LONG JUMP LYNN STEPH DO YOU HEAR ME?) Aww but the poor cheerleaders have been working so hard until H1N1 came in! Today I got to experience the exhilaration of bringing a plate of noodles out of the canteen and eating it in the Koi Pond right next to a prefect (who was also eating) since now the tables stretch all the way there. Life is just getting. Weird. As in I understand why we're doing this but it's just strange.

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And yes, it's true that I'm now Freaky Fifteen (: Haha wow. Life moves soooo fast. Last time I woke up, I was like. Five. But this year's birthday was pretty full of awesomeness <3

Haha so it all started with the insurance agent cake on Friday. Then I met Germanium at NLB at 10.30pm that night because we were really nice and decided to go join Jor at his reading marathon thing. Haha I think I'll just start koping excerpts from their posts (: But Germ's blog doesn't show her older posts ): Oh man.

"after that went to NLB where two AWESOME FRIENDS were there haha jazzy and gerMEANIE hahaha x) they were like there to support me haha cool right? EVERYONE ALL JEALOUS SIOL XD" 

HAHA yes we're totallaye awesome right.

So me and Germ spent the night (or morning) MARATHON STONING! Like walking to 7 eleven and getting nothing, talking rubbish, trying hard to concentrate on Math and Chinese but failing miserably. Not to mention Germ was a little drunk for a while there. 

Ahh so that ended at about 7.30 am and the three of us stumbled our way to Bugis Junction again. Took a trip to the mrt station then turned back and went to Starbucks! At this point Germ got high and started laughing at EVERYTHING me and Jor said. HAHA and I suggested we go ask the caucasian people at Starbucks for the way back to VEGAS! Too bad they left before one of us could do that. Jor and Germ were calling Rachel for some Urgent Matter.

Then somehow we ended up in Cathay but everything was still closed! Including the escalator. So we stoned around the escalator for a while 

"than jazzy go crazy and threw her purse around xD until e security guard scold us :P"

Not really like SCOLD us, more like GAVE US THE LOOK. Oh yes and it was a hp pouch.

Then we stoned around the empty fountain "waiting for Ben & Jerry's to open" and I got pretty restless and went hopping around the basement/trying to do double pirouettes and failing (duh)/doing lit/watching my friends morph into daylight zombies/wondering what on earth was actually going on and why Germ seemed to know something I DIDN'T!

Haha then we took the lift to the cinema and by that point, all of us were completely drained and zombified. Me and Germ flopped down on a couch and the TI people JUMPED UP BEHIND US and Germ screamed like super loud! HAHA and she knew they were there! I was kind of. Stunned. Because my brain wasn't really functioning I guess haha so I didn't scream until after I put 2 and 2 together and realised what was going on. AWESOME RIGHT (: (: Watched Duplicity which was pretty sick and spent half to movie laughing at everyone screaming at Rachel whenever sick parts came up. HAHA IT'S OKAY RACHEL THAT WAS FUNNY (:

Then Jor treated me and Germ to B&Js as promised (: (: (: Gosh B&Js is so super duper sweet but also super duper awesome! Everyone ended up in PS and had an escalator picnic like the hobos we were. HAHA had a brief episode of supermarket searching with Germ then my zombie friends had to go home ): After that Huiqun, Sarah, Rachel and I hid in Marks and Spencers from the guys. Poor things haha! Then I had a present presentation ceremony in the middle of PS haha thanks guys! AND SARAH... X) But I was kinda glad to go home soon after that because staying awake for 33 hours straight is seriously no joke. 

TAIWAN IMMERSION KIDS AND GERMAINIUM ARE AWESOME (: (: Really really didn't suspect a thing! Haha special thanks to Jor and Germ for putting up with my rubbish for 33 hours!

THEN THE NEXT DAY JOR SMSED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. HAHAHA IT WASN'T MY BIRTHDAY FOR ANOTHER 2 DAYS X) 

Birthday yesterday was awesome I don't remember there having been so many birthday wishes for all my other past birthdays thanks guys you're awesomenesssss! VERNA is soooo sweet I tell you awwww loved your gift and card thanks! And and YUFEI MANDY ZIEN GERMAINE chipped in for a gift too thanks! And my fabulous darling 105 and CLASSICS!!!!!!! Haha that was CLASSIC, Nisha and Jo-Ann luring me downstairs to "meet yimin" and Minchih "losing her wallet"! YES I'm using the awesome wallet you guys gave me love you all you're the coolest sec one class this year I insist (: And my darling deskmate Parisa giving me a note telling me that I can feel free to tell her to "SHUT THE **** UP" whenever she asks too many Maths questions haha Parisa I think I ask more questions than you lah!

Then Leko came over and we had classic birthday camwhoring and cake (:

And and yesterday having yet another semi-philosophical completely-random convo, I came up with the solution to all rhetorical emo questions: the only way to stop asking yourself rhetorical emo questions is to MAKE an answer. And -POOF- there you have it (:

Now I will attempt to answer your emo queries HAHA:

Q. What am I doing here? (variations include Why am still in this world, What is the point in me being alive etc. etc.)
A. Answer it yourself. DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE. Are you here to help people, to sing to dance to live life, to learn and pass on this knowledge? DON'T WAIT FOR THE ANSWER TO FALL FROM THE ACORN-SATURATED SKY. (Quote from The Suite Life: You are the pilot of your own life!)

Q. If I'm gone, will anybody even care? (variations include Nobody will care if I'm dead, so why shouldn't I be, Why am I here taking up precious space I should just be gone etc.etc.)
A. This one is trickier. But so far the best answer I've come up with is that You Wouldn't Know. I mean seriously, you wouldn't know unless you faked your death or something. So instead of pondering this one over, a better use of your time would be to go out there, and make someone happy. You'll be glad you did, and you'll understand why this question is simply unanswerable. To make your life worth something to others, you have to show others their lives are worth something to YOU(: Make someone else feel valuable, instead of worrying over the value of your life.

Yeah so you get what I mean.
Instead of asking yourself all these questions, ANSWER them yourself! It's your life, anyways (:




So now I'm sitting at the dining table with my parents and an insurance agent who just bought me a birthday cake HAHA cool right!

Okay I guess I should get to work now.

And the sad thing is that people who are crazy don't know they are crazy or maybe they're not really crazy just that everyone else thinks they are crazy but they don't know it. And that maybe it's the people who think other people are crazy who are really the crazy ones and that the people they call crazy are really the non crazy ones and blah blah blah

I don't wanna be fifteen. I don't want to remember the date. I don't want anyone to remember. But maybe I'm just like that today and I'd change my mind tomorrow.

Germaine and Jor want to crash my house next week (: (: (: Germaine's still in quarantine oh well poor kid.

Doing open house feedback forms. Because I know if I get it done I'll be super happy and it'll totallaye make my day. (Is it day if it's 3 in the morning?)

Anyways I'm proud of myself for having gotten back into running after being such a slacker for goodness like 4 months (tsktsk) PLUS I found a better route that takes me to that 3M building that's supposed to be on the road to Woodlands. And the path isn't as ugly and big and bare as the one at the hardcourt where we used to rollerblade. Only thing is that I was worried I might get bitten by killer mosquitoes but ta-dah guess what, I came back bite-free :) So while the rest of Sembawang is either running at the very boring hardcourt path or getting carbon monoxide-ed running round the blocks, I'll be the smart kid running the longer-but-cooler route to the awesome 3M building so HAH!

What reeks is that I still have to go through the hardcourt path on the way back because it's actually also part of the route if you wanna complete a circle.

I wonder how long I can keep this run-almost-every-evening thing up. Until I get H1N1 or something, I guess. THE SPANISH FLU IS A STRAIN OF H1N1 :O Yeah and there are 454 cases now and we're all looking forward to many more in the coming term how lame is that. Mortality is super duper low at least. But still.

MSN is a powerful thing:

Thanks Ben for the feedback form tips and EMPATHY :)

And thanks Claw for your jiayous. We really must get that Claudia pizza for your before we graduate!

And thanks Fang for motivating me to start chem :D :D

And thanks Jor for amusing me while I'm up doing work when people should be sleeping!

Ahhh Michael Jackson is gone Michael Jackson is gone. So surreal it's like how you know an earthquake happened in Sumatra but just sit home and watch the news and stuff and go Oh, Okay.

Uhh I don't know what to think of this. But at the same time it's like Anna Nicole Smith dying in 2007. Like Oh, Okay.

But somewhere right now someone dies silently, and nobody even bothers thinking of that person. I guess fame makes people you don't know feel like they know you, and they miss you when you're gone.

Still, to those that the world misses terribly, and to those the world doesn't miss, goodbye.

AHHH WHAT DID I JUST POST. I don't want to live in a HIV community! And I don't think anyone deserves to live in a HIV community! Get that straight. It's like staring in wonderment at WWII if you get where I'm coming from.

Aww man I'm confusing myself again. Over a movie I have not watched.

"This is Calcutta. Bohemia is dead."
"The opposite of war isn't peace, it's creation!"

You wanna play?
Let's run away
We wont be back
Before it's Christmas Day
Take me out tonight

Ahh i'm like ADDICTED to Out Tonight from RENT! It's so ironic this no lifer in the Practically Perfect land of Singapore is so fascinated with bohemia and everything associated with it. But you know, maybe it's these broke drugged artistes that are more human than anything else. Uhh okay maybe I'm just sick of everyone being too fortunate for their own good.

Oh wow look at the time.

How do you compose Bhangra music with GarageBand it is infuriating how they only have western instruments here. Uh but then again how often does the need for original Bhangra music arise?

HEEHEE GERMAINE WE SHOULD RENT RENT RIGHT? Haha :) Uhh but I think it's NC-16 I saw a copy in Sun Plaza some time ago I think. Haha would my mom rent RENT for me? It's PG-13 in the US :( But I can get the soundtrack I guess. Mom couldn't find it in Vietnam aww.\

But that's probably a good thing because I change tastes all the time so getting the soundtrack won't satisfy me for more than uhm 1-2 years? The other day I was listening to my iPod and I skipped 50% of the songs because they were lame like The Corrs and Kelly Clarkson both of whom I've gotten sick of long ago but didn't have the heart to delete from my playlist hah.

Haha on the other hand, I've been listening to RENT songs faithfully on Youtube for two days now while doing other stuff.

RENT is rock opera genius awesome songs (: (: (: Too bad it's NC16/M18 I don't know and plus it's not really what people call blockbuster cinema. I don't remember the movie making it to Singapore in 2005 even. Even though I remember something about Karen Mok doing Mimi for the musical asian tour and they came to Singapore some years back.

Ughh GarageBand is weird to the max but no choice cause we're not allowed to use copyrighted music and I don't think we can compose Bhangra music on the piano now, can we?

Ahhh I feel evil today I feel evil today I feel evil today I feel evil today

GUESS WHAT. THE "DEAD FISH" ISN'T REALLY DEAD. IT'S BEEN STRUGGLING FOR A WEEK NOW GO FISH GO DO OTHER FISHES PROUD! 

Wow how do you survive without food. In any case, I'm mighty glad it's not dead and the other fish isn't eating it.

You know it's the 21st century when people have virtual catfights:

Jordan---sms me if u wanna talk to me (: says: (9:23:03 PM)

hehe

the real jasmine says: (9:23:09 PM)

what's sho funny huhh

Jordan---sms me if u wanna talk to me (: says: (9:23:12 PM)

haha

the real jasmine says: (9:23:14 PM)

wanna fight?

Jordan---sms me if u wanna talk to me (: says: (9:23:18 PM)

nothing =D

Jordan---sms me if u wanna talk to me (: says: (9:23:22 PM)

bim fight!

Jordan---sms me if u wanna talk to me (: says: (9:23:27 PM)

*slap*

the real jasmine says: (9:23:33 PM)

*claw*

the real jasmine says: (9:23:36 PM)

RARR

Haha yeah even the glory of catfights is replaced by verbs sandwiched in between apostrophes.

:(
It's so painful watching an animal die.
There are two angelfish in the fish tank now. But one is dead. So I got the net and tried to fish it out so I could flush it away but arghhh I couldn't stand it so now it's still lying there like the dead fish in NTUC. Except I'm not afraid of going near NTUC fish because they weren't from my fish tank.
Rarr okay I guess I have to bring myself to do it somehow if not the other fish will eat the corpse and it'll get even harder to go near the fish tank. :( :(
I think it's more SIGHHH than EWWW. Aww but fishy had a good life. It had a long life too :D
R.I.P. fishy hope you find a nice longkang or river in heaven where you can swim around again. Sorry for daoing you a lot. Have a nice afterlife with your fishy friends.

Homg it's like birdy. Poor birdy you were recovering so well and then you just died.

birth. day.

I
don't want
my birthday to
be a big deal anymore.
Because growing old
is just
sad.

But
last year
my birthday was
right before gym comp
and my bestest XJT mates
gave me a surprise
and I thank
them for
that.

But
this year
I think I'm
way too tired to
even think of
celebrating
my

Birthday.




HAHA I'M A GREAT CONCRETE POET. Whuteverr.

But seriously, birthdays are fun and stuff yeah, but you reach a point (or age lah for that matter) where you're too busy to remember it.
And I came close to that last year. I almost forgot. Hahahaha until I looked at the calender and I was like HUH TOMORROW'S MY BIRTHDAY. That was very sad wasn't it. Hahaha but sho funny.
Eh but I can't believe people can actually remember! Like I remember that Su Yun gave me a pretty note and a Toblerone and I remember because I thanked her at training (we were sharing the hall that day cause of COMP). HAHAHA.
IF YOU REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY, YOU SERIOUSLY ROCK. :D

I don't feel like my birthday's coming in a month because
a) still feeling extremely extremely cheated over the holidays
b) already got my present last last month or something :D :D :D
c) because Munaya remembers it. and I don't. so. doesn't feel right, right.

I feel like I don't have a birthday. Maybe I'm just tired lahh today so a bit incoherent and I realise I say lah a lot nowadays and I don't really care because lah or lahh or lahhh is true Singaporean languange lah so yay me!