Ah gosh just came back from j8 where we attempted lit PT (: Key word: attempted. Hey at least we tried!

And I'm gonna leave the house in 15 minutes for piano at CCK oh man I can't believe exam is Monday and I'm not freaking out.

And I'm a wreck right now all because I didn't cool down after running yesterday. Like my feet were burning hot and I had to stick them in ice water. And my hands were trembling at dinner. But it's all good now. Almost (: I don't wanna go for piano. But I must. So bye.

Today was a good day (:

Met the TI kids again but this time there were only hmm 9 of us? So spent most of the day at Bishan Active where the guys played basketball for most part. I got 2 blisters from the monkey bars. One is broken and ouch it hurts like crazy now. Not to mention how gross it is. AND I NEVER GET BLISTERS FROM ROPE. Wow. Did a bit of practice shooting. Phail rate was like 95% whoops gotta do something about that. Oh then Jiayun came.

jia yun is awesome (:

Jia yun says: (8:42:20 PM)
u are too of course
jasmine says: (8:44:00 PM)
yay!

And then Yinxin came some time later on so Jiayun and Yinxin and I talked a lot. YES HAHA JIAYUN YOU ARE AWESOME (: AND YINXIN IS ALSO AWESOME (: And oh yes it was freakishly hot today. Like now my arms are a little red, but not burnt. And I stubbed my toes against the walls of my sneakers a lot so now they hurt too. Lousy sneakers D:

Sooo later on went to J8 to eat. At this point in time Yinxin and Jiayun decided to pangseh me and Zhiyuan joined in. And Marcus got his present! That giant plastic milk bottle thing with a monkey inside (:

Uh okay so after that we split.

edit:
Jotdan wants to be awesome too so Jotdan is awesome! Haha kidding I know it's you, Jordan. How on earth did your finger slip to the T on the keypad -.- Anyways since you (indirectly) asked for that
YES, JORDAN IS AWESOME TOO(:

Oh and just so everyone else (who is not Jiayun or Yinxin or Jordan) doesn't feel left out
YOU'RE AWESOME TOO(:

Holidays! As expected, the to-do list has been growing and growing at a healthy rate (: Or maybe ):

I don't know. Both?

So I have a lot of math to catch up on considering I missed another all-important lesson (aren't they all?) on Thursday and I spent most of Friday's struggling to copy all the worksheet answers down (the relief teacher writes amazingly fast on whiteboard). Yeah and doing rubbish with Emily and Zi En like going "I UNDERSTAND! HAH!" and then finding that the time you had taken off to exclaim your ecstasy significantly set you back for the next question. Emily says specs make me look intellectual.


And and I hate that I ran so much today but I don't feel accomplished AT ALL because I could've gone faster and as a result of my slackness I don't even feel like I ran at all. In fact, I think I just let myself jog most of the time ): Shall go read Pearl Izumi's Running Preservation book for motivation for tomorrow(: http://www.wearenotjoggers.com/home#/book/
That's really good stuff.


"A long time ago, I was on the verge of committing suicide when a guy came to the roof to have lunch. He saw me climbing over the railing and asked me to share his lunch with him. After receiving my puzzled look, he explained, “everyone should die happy. or at least with a full stomach.” We celebrated our 10th wedding anniversary last month. GMH."
Wow.
In case you're wondering, GMH=Gives Me Hope (http://www.givesmehope.com)


I love how Motion City Soundtrack can actually perform lyrics that wouldn't otherwise have looked like lyrics. And make them really good. So much better than Breaking Free, which couldn't really hide the strange lyrics as well. I mean, it sounds good if you don't pay attention to the way the lines don't really flow like how they're supposed to but if you do it's pretty ...
So anyways I liked Hold Me Down by MCS. If you look at the video on YouTube the comments section has become a breakup advice help forum haha which is pretty cool. And which also proves how great MCS is at writing songs.

I'm sorry that you were asleep when I wrote these words down
You'd think I ought to be used to that by now
Save for a few of those late night episodes, missed opportunities, And I don't cares; There's not a lot that I feel obliged to share or talk about
I'll have my brothers stop by this Saturday to pick up my things
Just make sure you're not there
This may sound bad and don't take it the wrong way

I mean, does this LOOK like a song to you? And yet it sounds sooo good! Or maybe just to me (: Now I finally understand why breakups make for such great songwriting material. Separate Lives, Goodbye Love etc. all great breakup songs.

Haven't seen my SPS friends for such a long time. Saw SIX of them today (: Beckham, Dillon, Jason, Jiaqing, Rachel and Wenxiang (in alphabetical order!). We went to Causeway and stuff. The movie couldn't play so now I have 2 free tickets wheeee! Maybe I'll go watch Up cause Yao Yuan said it was awesome. Who's with me?
Yeah so now all the guys are taller than I am. Sad, right? But if it was the other way round it'd be even sadder. But everyone's pretty much the same. Rachel says I've acquired an accent. And my Chinese is still weird as ever haha actually I think it got worse since I went to RG.
And Beckham lost her iPhone! So we went back to the empty theater to look for it thank goodness iPhones don't have silent, only vibrate! Dillon felt the seat vibrating and pried the cushion off and ta-dah there it was. The epitome of awesomeness. Don't we all love happy endings (:
Apparently I'm already pretty tall for a girl and RGS girls are not accurate gauges for girl height. But I still have to catch up with Nerd and Jordan at least! 4cm more!

On Wednesday, a bunch of Zien's debate juniors decided I had the dao look and that it was likely that I am a basketballer.

HAHAHA IT'S OKAY GO AHEAD AND LAUGH I LAUGHED TOO (:

Seriously, nobody's ever told me I looked like a basketballer in my life! Plus, I bet the fact that I was wearing a black hoodie influenced my dao factor significantly. But then again, it was a PSB hoodie with a big pink heart and a pink girl in front.

Whee I'm actually bothering to update!

School has been pretty good and I haven't been on MC for more than 4 weeks :D Cool, huh? But then again I've never been a sickly kid and this year's MCs were mostly used to cover for a certain mental hiccup. I promise I am sane now. I think. Well at least saner than I was 4 weeks ago, I guess. And I slept for 13 hours last Saturday! Before that I was too tired to even try to look alive when everyone was eating those funny Japanese desserts at MOF. I sat there biting on a metal teaspoon and stoning.

People are stealing my running route! I'll be nice and share. Anyways it's for the greater good (:

Be Yourself Day is coming up! Theme for this year is AMBITION. Well, when Dong was still in Wellington and the theme was AMBITION, she went as a cute little witch -.- She still has a badge with that photo on it. HAHA so cute right. She was p1 then I think.

Anahi Sosa is so cute! Haha random. She's my height. And 4kg lighter.

I like Mr Tan's blog. He writes really well, and I always appreciate good writing. (: A talent I have not acquired/developed thus far. Oh well (:

I tear big(ger) sushi apart and eat the rice grains in little bites. Something I discovered on Saturday at Nihon Mura. Oh and Spritzer vitamin water is too sweet for my liking plus it contains like 35g of sugar which made me go !?!?! And it made me thirsty! Which is sort of a good thing I guess because water is good.

Disclaimer: All that is written below is purely In My Humble Opinion (:

This makes sense.
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1914857,00.html

My ever supportive (cough) sisters Nerd and Dong were telling me how disgusting it is that I have more muscle than they have (but in truth that's not a lot of muscle anyways) and my mom says girls were made to be soft but I say I can't stand it when I'm on the bus and I see these soft-looking skinny girls because I'd be thinking "Weak. ". And even my dad decides to side with the rest of them and he says there is nothing wrong with being feminine if you're a girl but I say there is a Difference between being feminine and being soft.

And there's no fun in there being alive and healthy if you can't run fast, can't jump high, can't play hard etc. etc. (: But then again maybe those skinny girls are secretly really strong! And maybe some other person on the bus is looking at me and thinking "Weak.". Haha.

Yay so today was a good day like I predicted (:

National day celebrations were fun and messy and stuff and nobody actually followed the seating arrangements in the end luh 'cause we were too busy playing mass volleyball with giant inflatable beach balls thrown at us. And I screamed at Amanda Low so much I'm sure she's going to say Huh? a lot on Tuesday haha well SOMEBODY has to make her wake up! Uh, not that it really worked because Amanda is a stubborn kid.

Yay then after a pretty long but enriching meeting I bravely set out into the Great Perhaps of Bishan. Not that Bishan's hard to get around. So I met Tok Yin Xin the lost sheep at the platform of Bishan MRT and we went up to the bus stop and, while awaiting the arrival of our other acquaintances slash friends, talked about gym training and stuff (mostly hers because you know...) and how the ex-artgym coach would look right at home with the mafia. And random stuff I guess.

After having gathered and wandered about Bishan for half an hour, we ended up back at RI where it all began. Yeah so spent about 1.5h there playing bball. And I fouled like 10489284375982 times 'cause I completely forgot about the rules and stuff and treated the whole thing like Netball (and they are very different, trust me). Haha so as I (very) slowly remembered what we learnt in sec 2 PE everything started to seem so starkly embarrassing :O You can tell that bball and I aren't exactly close friends. More like some random kid you see on the bus every once in a while. Yeah. Sorry everyone who had to put up with this ):

And I think the guys were good (:

The sec 4s were all on one team and it was pretty cute you can see this routine developing like Mabel-->Cuier-->Lin-->hoop (:

Poor Yinxin was feeling listless so I told her to eat a banana and peanut butter sandwich because I had one for breakfast. (SEE FRIENDS I ACTUALLY EAT!)

So the sec 4s left and Jiayun came along only to have me and Yinxin abandon her despite her efforts at keeping us here another hour by somehow convincing us with a picture of a little kid and a stuffed toy or something. Aw poor Jiayun ): But we really had to leave you.

Haha so on the MRT train Yinxin and I mass smsed everyone who made our day happier with bball (: Yeah and today I decided bball is actually more fun than netball. (For now at least!) Weird huh. But I'll probably change my mind again tomorrow anyways.

Oh yes and I Must stop saying "SHOOT!" every time I try to score and fail because that's just unneccessarily bimbotic.

So thanks everyone who made my day from 7.20am to 3.15pm haha (:

So this week's been pretty okayish except that I haven't been running at all. Not even like short-sprints-running-ly running. I fell asleep yesterday when I was supposed to be running ): This is baaaad and I'm publicising this stuff so I can't slack off anymore or else the whole wide world wide web will know and go ORHHOR.

Yay tomorrow will be a fun day (:
Off to philo

202nd post (: How appropriate.

Okay so I just logged on to iNet and I HAVE TO POST THIS:

GO FOR TI'09. SERIOUSLY, YOU WON'T REGRET IT(: Plus 3 weeks sounds like a really long time, but last year ours was 4 weeks and it wasn't even that long because you're so busy (life in Taiwan is really interesting:) time just whoooshes by. Don't let this opportunity slip through your fingers! I almost backed out now I'm so glad I didn't. And don't worry if your Chinese is rubbish (like mine) because the classes there are actually quite fun!

If you're a sec 2/sec 3 Chinese/HCL student from RGS, here's the iNet link:
http://inet.rgs.edu.sg/school/students/Lists/Student%20News/DispForm.aspx?ID=1598

And if you don't believe me, read my archives I think there are a few posts I posted when I was in TI.

Uh, ignore the parts about me being stressed out. I was overreacting and I think I was the only one like that?

GO MY FRIENDS. SIGN UP.

Yasmin Ahmad is gone ): For those who don't know, she's this Malaysian director and IMHO she's really really good. She made that funeral commercial (the one with the Indian woman) too. Search Tan Hong Min In Love on YouTube that one's cute (:

Meanwhile here's another good commercial if you read the YouTube comments everyone cried watching it. I didn't though (?)

Back to math.

You know, this bio PT should be super easy for a Greenie like me because everything about climate change and environment's already ingrained in my Greenie brain.

But putting it down on Pages is a different matter altogether I guess. I could stand in front of the panel and argue to the ends of the earth but I can't make a dumb little propaganda pamphlet now how sad is that.

On the bright side, Fearful Symmetry's final performance was FUN (: But I've been missing so much school (because of my mental-physical health saga, tech rehearsal and the actual performance) poor Parisa has been keeping all my notes and worksheets and I have a LOT to catch up on. Not to mention campaigning.

But OPTIMISM is the way to go so I can do it(:

Hey(: Sorry I daoed so many people today or stared at you all but didn't respond or anything when you said hi. I was feeling pretty horrible today morning and still a bit mad a myself for getting myself into this state of mental health.

But I feel. So much better (: Yay! Sleep is awesome. So I shall sleep soon and wake up really early yay!

And you know that Doberman wasn't rabid, in fact it was sleeping and curled up in the corner but I just HAD to go to it and stick my finger in front of its nose so it bit my finger and now it's chasing me and whattaya know when it stops I'll probably do the same thing all over again.

Sorry I've been whining to everyone, life is perfectly fine and fair I guess to most extent, I am too, just not to myself. (: Ah. Well.

AHHHH LIFE IS CHASING ME LIKE A RABID DOBERMAN and I have a thermometer stuck in my mouth even though I'm not sick and I'm crossing my eyes trying to read the numbers so I just typed a post without looking at the screen.

Okay now I'm looking at the screen and I have no idea what's happening to me :O Oh yes and today I got my first major migraine hooray! It lasted approximately 9 hours too. So when Vic was telling me all her amusing RGPS stories I was clutching my forehead and laughing at the same time. Laughter kills (:

Haha shall stop feeling sorry for my little problems GET WELL SOON BEN AND RYAN! 

AHHH SHAO AND RACHEL ARE RIGHT I AM A FREAKY PERFECTIONIST! Aw man if I weren't I would've been asleep by now.
(but not all the time because i only get perfectionistic over things worth getting perfectionistic over)

Uh. No sports fest ): (LONG JUMP LONG JUMP LYNN STEPH DO YOU HEAR ME?) Aww but the poor cheerleaders have been working so hard until H1N1 came in! Today I got to experience the exhilaration of bringing a plate of noodles out of the canteen and eating it in the Koi Pond right next to a prefect (who was also eating) since now the tables stretch all the way there. Life is just getting. Weird. As in I understand why we're doing this but it's just strange.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=106347901916&ref=mf

And yes, it's true that I'm now Freaky Fifteen (: Haha wow. Life moves soooo fast. Last time I woke up, I was like. Five. But this year's birthday was pretty full of awesomeness <3

Haha so it all started with the insurance agent cake on Friday. Then I met Germanium at NLB at 10.30pm that night because we were really nice and decided to go join Jor at his reading marathon thing. Haha I think I'll just start koping excerpts from their posts (: But Germ's blog doesn't show her older posts ): Oh man.

"after that went to NLB where two AWESOME FRIENDS were there haha jazzy and gerMEANIE hahaha x) they were like there to support me haha cool right? EVERYONE ALL JEALOUS SIOL XD" 

HAHA yes we're totallaye awesome right.

So me and Germ spent the night (or morning) MARATHON STONING! Like walking to 7 eleven and getting nothing, talking rubbish, trying hard to concentrate on Math and Chinese but failing miserably. Not to mention Germ was a little drunk for a while there. 

Ahh so that ended at about 7.30 am and the three of us stumbled our way to Bugis Junction again. Took a trip to the mrt station then turned back and went to Starbucks! At this point Germ got high and started laughing at EVERYTHING me and Jor said. HAHA and I suggested we go ask the caucasian people at Starbucks for the way back to VEGAS! Too bad they left before one of us could do that. Jor and Germ were calling Rachel for some Urgent Matter.

Then somehow we ended up in Cathay but everything was still closed! Including the escalator. So we stoned around the escalator for a while 

"than jazzy go crazy and threw her purse around xD until e security guard scold us :P"

Not really like SCOLD us, more like GAVE US THE LOOK. Oh yes and it was a hp pouch.

Then we stoned around the empty fountain "waiting for Ben & Jerry's to open" and I got pretty restless and went hopping around the basement/trying to do double pirouettes and failing (duh)/doing lit/watching my friends morph into daylight zombies/wondering what on earth was actually going on and why Germ seemed to know something I DIDN'T!

Haha then we took the lift to the cinema and by that point, all of us were completely drained and zombified. Me and Germ flopped down on a couch and the TI people JUMPED UP BEHIND US and Germ screamed like super loud! HAHA and she knew they were there! I was kind of. Stunned. Because my brain wasn't really functioning I guess haha so I didn't scream until after I put 2 and 2 together and realised what was going on. AWESOME RIGHT (: (: Watched Duplicity which was pretty sick and spent half to movie laughing at everyone screaming at Rachel whenever sick parts came up. HAHA IT'S OKAY RACHEL THAT WAS FUNNY (:

Then Jor treated me and Germ to B&Js as promised (: (: (: Gosh B&Js is so super duper sweet but also super duper awesome! Everyone ended up in PS and had an escalator picnic like the hobos we were. HAHA had a brief episode of supermarket searching with Germ then my zombie friends had to go home ): After that Huiqun, Sarah, Rachel and I hid in Marks and Spencers from the guys. Poor things haha! Then I had a present presentation ceremony in the middle of PS haha thanks guys! AND SARAH... X) But I was kinda glad to go home soon after that because staying awake for 33 hours straight is seriously no joke. 

TAIWAN IMMERSION KIDS AND GERMAINIUM ARE AWESOME (: (: Really really didn't suspect a thing! Haha special thanks to Jor and Germ for putting up with my rubbish for 33 hours!

THEN THE NEXT DAY JOR SMSED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. HAHAHA IT WASN'T MY BIRTHDAY FOR ANOTHER 2 DAYS X) 

Birthday yesterday was awesome I don't remember there having been so many birthday wishes for all my other past birthdays thanks guys you're awesomenesssss! VERNA is soooo sweet I tell you awwww loved your gift and card thanks! And and YUFEI MANDY ZIEN GERMAINE chipped in for a gift too thanks! And my fabulous darling 105 and CLASSICS!!!!!!! Haha that was CLASSIC, Nisha and Jo-Ann luring me downstairs to "meet yimin" and Minchih "losing her wallet"! YES I'm using the awesome wallet you guys gave me love you all you're the coolest sec one class this year I insist (: And my darling deskmate Parisa giving me a note telling me that I can feel free to tell her to "SHUT THE **** UP" whenever she asks too many Maths questions haha Parisa I think I ask more questions than you lah!

Then Leko came over and we had classic birthday camwhoring and cake (:

And and yesterday having yet another semi-philosophical completely-random convo, I came up with the solution to all rhetorical emo questions: the only way to stop asking yourself rhetorical emo questions is to MAKE an answer. And -POOF- there you have it (:

Now I will attempt to answer your emo queries HAHA:

Q. What am I doing here? (variations include Why am still in this world, What is the point in me being alive etc. etc.)
A. Answer it yourself. DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE. Are you here to help people, to sing to dance to live life, to learn and pass on this knowledge? DON'T WAIT FOR THE ANSWER TO FALL FROM THE ACORN-SATURATED SKY. (Quote from The Suite Life: You are the pilot of your own life!)

Q. If I'm gone, will anybody even care? (variations include Nobody will care if I'm dead, so why shouldn't I be, Why am I here taking up precious space I should just be gone etc.etc.)
A. This one is trickier. But so far the best answer I've come up with is that You Wouldn't Know. I mean seriously, you wouldn't know unless you faked your death or something. So instead of pondering this one over, a better use of your time would be to go out there, and make someone happy. You'll be glad you did, and you'll understand why this question is simply unanswerable. To make your life worth something to others, you have to show others their lives are worth something to YOU(: Make someone else feel valuable, instead of worrying over the value of your life.

Yeah so you get what I mean.
Instead of asking yourself all these questions, ANSWER them yourself! It's your life, anyways (:




So now I'm sitting at the dining table with my parents and an insurance agent who just bought me a birthday cake HAHA cool right!

Okay I guess I should get to work now.

And the sad thing is that people who are crazy don't know they are crazy or maybe they're not really crazy just that everyone else thinks they are crazy but they don't know it. And that maybe it's the people who think other people are crazy who are really the crazy ones and that the people they call crazy are really the non crazy ones and blah blah blah

I don't wanna be fifteen. I don't want to remember the date. I don't want anyone to remember. But maybe I'm just like that today and I'd change my mind tomorrow.

Germaine and Jor want to crash my house next week (: (: (: Germaine's still in quarantine oh well poor kid.