Disclaimer: All that is written below is purely In My Humble Opinion (:

This makes sense.
http://www.time.com/time/health/article/0,8599,1914857,00.html

My ever supportive (cough) sisters Nerd and Dong were telling me how disgusting it is that I have more muscle than they have (but in truth that's not a lot of muscle anyways) and my mom says girls were made to be soft but I say I can't stand it when I'm on the bus and I see these soft-looking skinny girls because I'd be thinking "Weak. ". And even my dad decides to side with the rest of them and he says there is nothing wrong with being feminine if you're a girl but I say there is a Difference between being feminine and being soft.

And there's no fun in there being alive and healthy if you can't run fast, can't jump high, can't play hard etc. etc. (: But then again maybe those skinny girls are secretly really strong! And maybe some other person on the bus is looking at me and thinking "Weak.". Haha.

Yay so today was a good day like I predicted (:

National day celebrations were fun and messy and stuff and nobody actually followed the seating arrangements in the end luh 'cause we were too busy playing mass volleyball with giant inflatable beach balls thrown at us. And I screamed at Amanda Low so much I'm sure she's going to say Huh? a lot on Tuesday haha well SOMEBODY has to make her wake up! Uh, not that it really worked because Amanda is a stubborn kid.

Yay then after a pretty long but enriching meeting I bravely set out into the Great Perhaps of Bishan. Not that Bishan's hard to get around. So I met Tok Yin Xin the lost sheep at the platform of Bishan MRT and we went up to the bus stop and, while awaiting the arrival of our other acquaintances slash friends, talked about gym training and stuff (mostly hers because you know...) and how the ex-artgym coach would look right at home with the mafia. And random stuff I guess.

After having gathered and wandered about Bishan for half an hour, we ended up back at RI where it all began. Yeah so spent about 1.5h there playing bball. And I fouled like 10489284375982 times 'cause I completely forgot about the rules and stuff and treated the whole thing like Netball (and they are very different, trust me). Haha so as I (very) slowly remembered what we learnt in sec 2 PE everything started to seem so starkly embarrassing :O You can tell that bball and I aren't exactly close friends. More like some random kid you see on the bus every once in a while. Yeah. Sorry everyone who had to put up with this ):

And I think the guys were good (:

The sec 4s were all on one team and it was pretty cute you can see this routine developing like Mabel-->Cuier-->Lin-->hoop (:

Poor Yinxin was feeling listless so I told her to eat a banana and peanut butter sandwich because I had one for breakfast. (SEE FRIENDS I ACTUALLY EAT!)

So the sec 4s left and Jiayun came along only to have me and Yinxin abandon her despite her efforts at keeping us here another hour by somehow convincing us with a picture of a little kid and a stuffed toy or something. Aw poor Jiayun ): But we really had to leave you.

Haha so on the MRT train Yinxin and I mass smsed everyone who made our day happier with bball (: Yeah and today I decided bball is actually more fun than netball. (For now at least!) Weird huh. But I'll probably change my mind again tomorrow anyways.

Oh yes and I Must stop saying "SHOOT!" every time I try to score and fail because that's just unneccessarily bimbotic.

So thanks everyone who made my day from 7.20am to 3.15pm haha (:

So this week's been pretty okayish except that I haven't been running at all. Not even like short-sprints-running-ly running. I fell asleep yesterday when I was supposed to be running ): This is baaaad and I'm publicising this stuff so I can't slack off anymore or else the whole wide world wide web will know and go ORHHOR.

Yay tomorrow will be a fun day (:
Off to philo

202nd post (: How appropriate.

Okay so I just logged on to iNet and I HAVE TO POST THIS:

GO FOR TI'09. SERIOUSLY, YOU WON'T REGRET IT(: Plus 3 weeks sounds like a really long time, but last year ours was 4 weeks and it wasn't even that long because you're so busy (life in Taiwan is really interesting:) time just whoooshes by. Don't let this opportunity slip through your fingers! I almost backed out now I'm so glad I didn't. And don't worry if your Chinese is rubbish (like mine) because the classes there are actually quite fun!

If you're a sec 2/sec 3 Chinese/HCL student from RGS, here's the iNet link:
http://inet.rgs.edu.sg/school/students/Lists/Student%20News/DispForm.aspx?ID=1598

And if you don't believe me, read my archives I think there are a few posts I posted when I was in TI.

Uh, ignore the parts about me being stressed out. I was overreacting and I think I was the only one like that?

GO MY FRIENDS. SIGN UP.

Yasmin Ahmad is gone ): For those who don't know, she's this Malaysian director and IMHO she's really really good. She made that funeral commercial (the one with the Indian woman) too. Search Tan Hong Min In Love on YouTube that one's cute (:

Meanwhile here's another good commercial if you read the YouTube comments everyone cried watching it. I didn't though (?)

Back to math.

You know, this bio PT should be super easy for a Greenie like me because everything about climate change and environment's already ingrained in my Greenie brain.

But putting it down on Pages is a different matter altogether I guess. I could stand in front of the panel and argue to the ends of the earth but I can't make a dumb little propaganda pamphlet now how sad is that.

On the bright side, Fearful Symmetry's final performance was FUN (: But I've been missing so much school (because of my mental-physical health saga, tech rehearsal and the actual performance) poor Parisa has been keeping all my notes and worksheets and I have a LOT to catch up on. Not to mention campaigning.

But OPTIMISM is the way to go so I can do it(:

Hey(: Sorry I daoed so many people today or stared at you all but didn't respond or anything when you said hi. I was feeling pretty horrible today morning and still a bit mad a myself for getting myself into this state of mental health.

But I feel. So much better (: Yay! Sleep is awesome. So I shall sleep soon and wake up really early yay!

And you know that Doberman wasn't rabid, in fact it was sleeping and curled up in the corner but I just HAD to go to it and stick my finger in front of its nose so it bit my finger and now it's chasing me and whattaya know when it stops I'll probably do the same thing all over again.

Sorry I've been whining to everyone, life is perfectly fine and fair I guess to most extent, I am too, just not to myself. (: Ah. Well.

AHHHH LIFE IS CHASING ME LIKE A RABID DOBERMAN and I have a thermometer stuck in my mouth even though I'm not sick and I'm crossing my eyes trying to read the numbers so I just typed a post without looking at the screen.

Okay now I'm looking at the screen and I have no idea what's happening to me :O Oh yes and today I got my first major migraine hooray! It lasted approximately 9 hours too. So when Vic was telling me all her amusing RGPS stories I was clutching my forehead and laughing at the same time. Laughter kills (:

Haha shall stop feeling sorry for my little problems GET WELL SOON BEN AND RYAN! 

AHHH SHAO AND RACHEL ARE RIGHT I AM A FREAKY PERFECTIONIST! Aw man if I weren't I would've been asleep by now.
(but not all the time because i only get perfectionistic over things worth getting perfectionistic over)

Uh. No sports fest ): (LONG JUMP LONG JUMP LYNN STEPH DO YOU HEAR ME?) Aww but the poor cheerleaders have been working so hard until H1N1 came in! Today I got to experience the exhilaration of bringing a plate of noodles out of the canteen and eating it in the Koi Pond right next to a prefect (who was also eating) since now the tables stretch all the way there. Life is just getting. Weird. As in I understand why we're doing this but it's just strange.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/group.php?gid=106347901916&ref=mf

And yes, it's true that I'm now Freaky Fifteen (: Haha wow. Life moves soooo fast. Last time I woke up, I was like. Five. But this year's birthday was pretty full of awesomeness <3

Haha so it all started with the insurance agent cake on Friday. Then I met Germanium at NLB at 10.30pm that night because we were really nice and decided to go join Jor at his reading marathon thing. Haha I think I'll just start koping excerpts from their posts (: But Germ's blog doesn't show her older posts ): Oh man.

"after that went to NLB where two AWESOME FRIENDS were there haha jazzy and gerMEANIE hahaha x) they were like there to support me haha cool right? EVERYONE ALL JEALOUS SIOL XD" 

HAHA yes we're totallaye awesome right.

So me and Germ spent the night (or morning) MARATHON STONING! Like walking to 7 eleven and getting nothing, talking rubbish, trying hard to concentrate on Math and Chinese but failing miserably. Not to mention Germ was a little drunk for a while there. 

Ahh so that ended at about 7.30 am and the three of us stumbled our way to Bugis Junction again. Took a trip to the mrt station then turned back and went to Starbucks! At this point Germ got high and started laughing at EVERYTHING me and Jor said. HAHA and I suggested we go ask the caucasian people at Starbucks for the way back to VEGAS! Too bad they left before one of us could do that. Jor and Germ were calling Rachel for some Urgent Matter.

Then somehow we ended up in Cathay but everything was still closed! Including the escalator. So we stoned around the escalator for a while 

"than jazzy go crazy and threw her purse around xD until e security guard scold us :P"

Not really like SCOLD us, more like GAVE US THE LOOK. Oh yes and it was a hp pouch.

Then we stoned around the empty fountain "waiting for Ben & Jerry's to open" and I got pretty restless and went hopping around the basement/trying to do double pirouettes and failing (duh)/doing lit/watching my friends morph into daylight zombies/wondering what on earth was actually going on and why Germ seemed to know something I DIDN'T!

Haha then we took the lift to the cinema and by that point, all of us were completely drained and zombified. Me and Germ flopped down on a couch and the TI people JUMPED UP BEHIND US and Germ screamed like super loud! HAHA and she knew they were there! I was kind of. Stunned. Because my brain wasn't really functioning I guess haha so I didn't scream until after I put 2 and 2 together and realised what was going on. AWESOME RIGHT (: (: Watched Duplicity which was pretty sick and spent half to movie laughing at everyone screaming at Rachel whenever sick parts came up. HAHA IT'S OKAY RACHEL THAT WAS FUNNY (:

Then Jor treated me and Germ to B&Js as promised (: (: (: Gosh B&Js is so super duper sweet but also super duper awesome! Everyone ended up in PS and had an escalator picnic like the hobos we were. HAHA had a brief episode of supermarket searching with Germ then my zombie friends had to go home ): After that Huiqun, Sarah, Rachel and I hid in Marks and Spencers from the guys. Poor things haha! Then I had a present presentation ceremony in the middle of PS haha thanks guys! AND SARAH... X) But I was kinda glad to go home soon after that because staying awake for 33 hours straight is seriously no joke. 

TAIWAN IMMERSION KIDS AND GERMAINIUM ARE AWESOME (: (: Really really didn't suspect a thing! Haha special thanks to Jor and Germ for putting up with my rubbish for 33 hours!

THEN THE NEXT DAY JOR SMSED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY. HAHAHA IT WASN'T MY BIRTHDAY FOR ANOTHER 2 DAYS X) 

Birthday yesterday was awesome I don't remember there having been so many birthday wishes for all my other past birthdays thanks guys you're awesomenesssss! VERNA is soooo sweet I tell you awwww loved your gift and card thanks! And and YUFEI MANDY ZIEN GERMAINE chipped in for a gift too thanks! And my fabulous darling 105 and CLASSICS!!!!!!! Haha that was CLASSIC, Nisha and Jo-Ann luring me downstairs to "meet yimin" and Minchih "losing her wallet"! YES I'm using the awesome wallet you guys gave me love you all you're the coolest sec one class this year I insist (: And my darling deskmate Parisa giving me a note telling me that I can feel free to tell her to "SHUT THE **** UP" whenever she asks too many Maths questions haha Parisa I think I ask more questions than you lah!

Then Leko came over and we had classic birthday camwhoring and cake (:

And and yesterday having yet another semi-philosophical completely-random convo, I came up with the solution to all rhetorical emo questions: the only way to stop asking yourself rhetorical emo questions is to MAKE an answer. And -POOF- there you have it (:

Now I will attempt to answer your emo queries HAHA:

Q. What am I doing here? (variations include Why am still in this world, What is the point in me being alive etc. etc.)
A. Answer it yourself. DECIDE WHAT YOU WANT TO DO WITH YOUR LIFE. Are you here to help people, to sing to dance to live life, to learn and pass on this knowledge? DON'T WAIT FOR THE ANSWER TO FALL FROM THE ACORN-SATURATED SKY. (Quote from The Suite Life: You are the pilot of your own life!)

Q. If I'm gone, will anybody even care? (variations include Nobody will care if I'm dead, so why shouldn't I be, Why am I here taking up precious space I should just be gone etc.etc.)
A. This one is trickier. But so far the best answer I've come up with is that You Wouldn't Know. I mean seriously, you wouldn't know unless you faked your death or something. So instead of pondering this one over, a better use of your time would be to go out there, and make someone happy. You'll be glad you did, and you'll understand why this question is simply unanswerable. To make your life worth something to others, you have to show others their lives are worth something to YOU(: Make someone else feel valuable, instead of worrying over the value of your life.

Yeah so you get what I mean.
Instead of asking yourself all these questions, ANSWER them yourself! It's your life, anyways (:




So now I'm sitting at the dining table with my parents and an insurance agent who just bought me a birthday cake HAHA cool right!

Okay I guess I should get to work now.

And the sad thing is that people who are crazy don't know they are crazy or maybe they're not really crazy just that everyone else thinks they are crazy but they don't know it. And that maybe it's the people who think other people are crazy who are really the crazy ones and that the people they call crazy are really the non crazy ones and blah blah blah

I don't wanna be fifteen. I don't want to remember the date. I don't want anyone to remember. But maybe I'm just like that today and I'd change my mind tomorrow.

Germaine and Jor want to crash my house next week (: (: (: Germaine's still in quarantine oh well poor kid.

Doing open house feedback forms. Because I know if I get it done I'll be super happy and it'll totallaye make my day. (Is it day if it's 3 in the morning?)

Anyways I'm proud of myself for having gotten back into running after being such a slacker for goodness like 4 months (tsktsk) PLUS I found a better route that takes me to that 3M building that's supposed to be on the road to Woodlands. And the path isn't as ugly and big and bare as the one at the hardcourt where we used to rollerblade. Only thing is that I was worried I might get bitten by killer mosquitoes but ta-dah guess what, I came back bite-free :) So while the rest of Sembawang is either running at the very boring hardcourt path or getting carbon monoxide-ed running round the blocks, I'll be the smart kid running the longer-but-cooler route to the awesome 3M building so HAH!

What reeks is that I still have to go through the hardcourt path on the way back because it's actually also part of the route if you wanna complete a circle.

I wonder how long I can keep this run-almost-every-evening thing up. Until I get H1N1 or something, I guess. THE SPANISH FLU IS A STRAIN OF H1N1 :O Yeah and there are 454 cases now and we're all looking forward to many more in the coming term how lame is that. Mortality is super duper low at least. But still.

MSN is a powerful thing:

Thanks Ben for the feedback form tips and EMPATHY :)

And thanks Claw for your jiayous. We really must get that Claudia pizza for your before we graduate!

And thanks Fang for motivating me to start chem :D :D

And thanks Jor for amusing me while I'm up doing work when people should be sleeping!

Ahhh Michael Jackson is gone Michael Jackson is gone. So surreal it's like how you know an earthquake happened in Sumatra but just sit home and watch the news and stuff and go Oh, Okay.

Uhh I don't know what to think of this. But at the same time it's like Anna Nicole Smith dying in 2007. Like Oh, Okay.

But somewhere right now someone dies silently, and nobody even bothers thinking of that person. I guess fame makes people you don't know feel like they know you, and they miss you when you're gone.

Still, to those that the world misses terribly, and to those the world doesn't miss, goodbye.

AHHH WHAT DID I JUST POST. I don't want to live in a HIV community! And I don't think anyone deserves to live in a HIV community! Get that straight. It's like staring in wonderment at WWII if you get where I'm coming from.

Aww man I'm confusing myself again. Over a movie I have not watched.

"This is Calcutta. Bohemia is dead."
"The opposite of war isn't peace, it's creation!"

You wanna play?
Let's run away
We wont be back
Before it's Christmas Day
Take me out tonight

Ahh i'm like ADDICTED to Out Tonight from RENT! It's so ironic this no lifer in the Practically Perfect land of Singapore is so fascinated with bohemia and everything associated with it. But you know, maybe it's these broke drugged artistes that are more human than anything else. Uhh okay maybe I'm just sick of everyone being too fortunate for their own good.

Oh wow look at the time.

How do you compose Bhangra music with GarageBand it is infuriating how they only have western instruments here. Uh but then again how often does the need for original Bhangra music arise?

HEEHEE GERMAINE WE SHOULD RENT RENT RIGHT? Haha :) Uhh but I think it's NC-16 I saw a copy in Sun Plaza some time ago I think. Haha would my mom rent RENT for me? It's PG-13 in the US :( But I can get the soundtrack I guess. Mom couldn't find it in Vietnam aww.\

But that's probably a good thing because I change tastes all the time so getting the soundtrack won't satisfy me for more than uhm 1-2 years? The other day I was listening to my iPod and I skipped 50% of the songs because they were lame like The Corrs and Kelly Clarkson both of whom I've gotten sick of long ago but didn't have the heart to delete from my playlist hah.

Haha on the other hand, I've been listening to RENT songs faithfully on Youtube for two days now while doing other stuff.

RENT is rock opera genius awesome songs (: (: (: Too bad it's NC16/M18 I don't know and plus it's not really what people call blockbuster cinema. I don't remember the movie making it to Singapore in 2005 even. Even though I remember something about Karen Mok doing Mimi for the musical asian tour and they came to Singapore some years back.

Ughh GarageBand is weird to the max but no choice cause we're not allowed to use copyrighted music and I don't think we can compose Bhangra music on the piano now, can we?

Ahhh I feel evil today I feel evil today I feel evil today I feel evil today